how to desire god
I remember one Easter weekend about two years ago. God allows everything to lead us to Life, no matter how painful it is and will make everything better after we suffer a little and lead us closer to the path of Lifeâfor those who do in fact trust in Him. True sorrow is when we detest our sins so much we would rather suffer the greatest pains than offend our beloved Lord in the slightest way... God intentionally made us all differently. Sadly however, for most of us, when we don’t get our love from our kids, we run and make friends, find a hobby or something else to fill the gap in our heart, when GOD IS WAITING FOR US. Therefore, our goal in life is to steadily remove our inordinate attachments (the things we desire that aren’t to know, serve and love God) as we grow and grow in grace, so we can one day love Him above all and desire God alone. They don’t know God well enough and how to feel God’s incredible love through the cross alone, therefore, without the love from man, they feel all alone and unloved. Slowly, I began to see him change my heart, change my desires. That is a real challenge. I’m not going outside, it’s too hot…we declare, as we run from any personal discomfort and force others to comply with our wishes so not have any for of a cross. Here are four simple ways to grow in our desire for God more. But what I mean is, when we desire God alone, we know what we want–our will–is one of sin (seeking to satsify our deisres, not God’s), so we want nothing to do with a single desire we have and only want what God desires–He alone knows what is best, so we relent all we want for what ever God allows. If we are seeking the cross, we will rejoice in any neglect and praise God for the lack of love/attention from others so we can focus on receiving God’s love and loving Him through His cross, which is the true way to Christ. Presumption of salvation is a horrible disease spreading in today’s generation. About Israel, God told Ezekiel, "And I will give them one heart, and a new spirit I will put within them. That needs to be our goal in life to: to suffer for the love of God so to send grace for the salvation of souls. What an incredible feeling to want God alone…how can words describe what it feels like to be emptied of all we desire and have replaced it with God. You can read more of Dena’s experiences with her Great I AM on her blog Dena's Devos. We don’t suffer like Christ or the saints at all. They are like a cute dogie: always there smiling wagging its tail filling us with the love we crave. We have made them our gods. How did I make the journey? Some people might make an attempt to go to God, especially in moments of great pain, but the pining for their attachment, and not wanting or trusting in God’s will, prevents them from receiving all of the love God wants to give them. Of course children are to love and care for their parents true needs, but do we, as parents, make our needs their constant love, when God is supposed to provide us with all of the love we need. I took off running, knowing that God always met me as my feet pounded the pavement. That is real reason so few saints are married people as it is terribly hard to surrender looking for happiness through worldly life, but we must let go of our family, friends, pets, and all things that we run to for happiness and run to God instead. If we want to love God above all and desire only Him, He will teach us how to do it. Therefore, if you love to suffer in silence, don’t treat everyone like you…most aren’t at that point spiritually and still need to “feel” loved by man to not become depressed when sick and needy, since they don’t have the faith in God to receive His magnificent consolations to suffer like Christ. Truly we would struggle greatly. Desiring anything self-seeking isn’t the thoughts of someone who truly desires God alone. The pull is just so great. Seeking help, when help is needed is very good, and seeking to help/love/encourage/support others when they are in need is of course good too. 1. We are called to love God more than all else, to desire Him more than all else. How happy are the saints who renounced all things for God! But, we might even find ourselves saying, “If I give up all that I love, what am I supposed to do with my time…just sit around and pray all day.” And right now that might sound just horrible, because we don’t have the grace to want to pray all day–to love and be with God all of the time–and we simply prefer the TV, internet, video games, movies, working, shopping, pleasurable eating, playing, friends, etc. Dec 30, 2020. The tears flowed freely as doors of ministry began to open. But we want to be addicted to God…the one who deliver us perfect everlasting happiness. How cunning is that devil! As I poured out my heart to God, I voiced something to him that I never thought would happen. “God, I want to want you more than anything else,” I cried out from the depths of my pain. If something bad has happened, we inform others wanting their sympathy. We shouldn’t be jealous of the families that hang out and do many fun things together. Eight Years of APJ, and What’s Ahead. What a cross it is to live for so long away from Who our hearts yearn so greatly to be with. How can we obtain a true love for God if our eyes are on another? But when we mature, we are to leave childish ways behind, mature in faith and life for God alone, not in pursuit of the affections of the world any longer. How do I distinguish between my desires and God’s? My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever (Psalm 73:25-26 NLT). ]” –St. These three things can only be accomplished when a person’s mind is stayed upon the Lord. Now, don’t get me wrong, of course, we can still enjoy the things of the world–that are’t directly sinful–or be loved by others, but the problem is that we seek/desire them to make us happy, to console us, to approve us, to understand us, to complete us.Â We don’t partake in a worldly pleasure because we have to, but because we want to.Â We want them to fill the void that is within us…and sadly, fill our desire for love and happiness with them and not God alone, who wants to be our everything. Are we crying for our children’s affection? I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us (Philippians 3:13b-14 NLT). Unless we have allowed God’s grace to transform us greatly, we want to be happy, comfortable and loved by man…Yes, we are self-absorbed and mostly only do what we do forÂ our happiness. We just need to find enough “want to” to ask for it. What a challenge! “Whoever drinks the water I shall give will never thirst [for a pleasure of the world again and be completely satisfied with Me]” (John 4:14). My greatest desire is to walk daily in your presence.”. If The Hammer could give our team the “want to” for basketball, surely God can fill us with a greater desire for Him. For example: I have tried to guide others to strive to live for God alone and told them God doesn’t want us to waste our time on fruitless nonsense that merits nothing…and sadly to justify their sins they said, “I deserve some fun.” The words right out of their own mouths proved what they go to for “fun” and it isn’t God. This is why when we die and if our will is still that of wanting sin–if we desire to love ourselves, by our sins or attachments (idols), and not God alone–we reject Heaven from our self-love. But be ware, we might hide our prideful ways in asking for prayers in times of need or some other seemingly “good” intention, but we have to be very careful to really look into the true intentions for why we talk…is it seeking glory, praise and attention from others or is it from a genuine desire…a true need for help or honestly to help/love others. Amazing!Â. Eventually, we won’t have to work hard to remove the things we are attached to, because we have finally received enough of God’s grace to move our hearts, and we simply won’t desire them any more…our hearts will be so filled with much of God’s love, we will only want Him. Dena Johnson is a busy single mom of three kids who loves God passionately. For example, it often says in the Psalms that God is our refuge. No one comes to the Father except through me [Jesus]” (John 14:6). We don’t want to wind up as tragically many of us do who are so addicted to the world, and constantly crave more and more pleasure from it…who eventually loose all sight of Who delivers us the real joy/love we are looking for. He had a firm grip on my life, and I was willing to give his way another try. God willing, after reading this article, we will develop a clearer understanding of what are some of the sinful things we choose (desire), that pushes away God’s love so we can repent and change. “In fact everyone is obligated, to this loving cleaving to God as necessary for salvation, in the form of observing the commandments and conforming our will to the divine will” (St. Albert the Great). But even with our desire for God being so great, we relent our will (the desire to die) for God’s…so if He desires us to live long on earth, Thy will be done. Horribly, many receive God's actual Body and Blood when they should abstain until they grow in faith... "Fear of the Lord" is fear of sin and its consequences. What is God’s Mercy and How Can I Obtain It? Wow! God says forthrightly, “This is the fast I desire.” What if we viewed our fasts as a way to establish justice and bring God’s goodness to the world instead of seeking our own piety? Without fear we are suffering great blindness... No. I came to understand that I am his at the very core of my being. We don’t want anything. with love…when you are done with this article click here as I have explained how we can work towards loving God in others in every thought, word and deed.) One of the great misunderstood words in the Word is "don't judge." Please read “What Are Mortal Sins” (link at bottom of this article). I long to love my Jesus and I will to love Him perfectly, no matter what the cost, no matter what the sacrifice.”. Ask ourselves: what do we do with our free time? Whom have I in heaven but you? Oh, we don’t desire God alone, and go to Him, we desire the pleasure and comfort of the world and as a result are greatly missing the perfect pleasure and comfort God provides. “God loves, and his love may certainly be called eros, yet it is also totally agape” (DCE 9). God loves to share his blessings with his children, and there are certain desires we see Him often saying “yes” to. If we are still in love with the world, we simply can’t obtain the perfect love, comfort and peace God alone truly provides. Yet, we deserve nothing but suffering for the sins we have committed against God, any pleasure we have is most undeserved. “You must understand this, that in the last days distressing times will come. Psalm 31:21 says, “Blessed God! Truly, God provides more fun, pleasure, and satisfaction than any of the things in the world we do for fun. His … Truly not one thought, word or action is supposed to be outside of love of God through loving our neighbor. Eventually, however, through the Father’s relentless pursuit of me, I surrendered. My future was uncertain. “For what the flesh [our nature] desires is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit desires is opposed to the flesh; for these are opposed to each other” (Galatians 5:17). I couldn’t even begin to imagine how he would take my heart from a place of pain, of longing to love and be loved, to a place of complete contentment in him. Then after, from God’s grace, we have banished them from our life we will get down to the more finite consolations/approvals we seek, that have been hidden–until God reveled them to us–that we delight in that simply must go too. We can love others, but not above God. But if we were honest with ourselves, we would see we don’t do that. We must learn how to do everything out of love God through our neighbor, not ourselves. We must grow in faith to desire God alone. Listen to stories of how God is at work in someone else’s life. Her greatest desire is to be a channel of God’s comfort and encouragement. I also found ways to focus on him throughout my day. How Can I Preach the Truth and Save Souls? Well, because we have never truly experienced God’s fantastic love and peace He delivers in our life, or if we have we have forgotten about it and aren’t seeking it to continue in all circumstances in our life. This … Yet, Jesus alone is to be our life–our everything. If someone lacks grace to suffer like Christ, neglecting to show them love and care they expect won’t help them grow in holiness, it will only make them bitter and angry and feel self-pity…not that seeing our fruits of pride (anger-self pity, etc.) If we can obtain enough of God's grace, we can have fantastic peace during the most intense horrific suffering, but we must have the faith to surrender our will to God's for the salvation of souls. Sadly, some of us never grow up; we still want to play and be loved by others; we don’t seek the one and only true Love of our heart…not with a desire the will win Him. What a blessing a young death is for the faithful! Are we really living the Word or even trying? But sadly most haven’t learned God’s lessons to help bring us to salvation from the loss, and continue life as if nothing ever happened and simply go to the world to fill our void when God’s love that is waiting for us. Imagine never wanting to find happiness with the world…just God. Say Breath Prayers: We often have to tell ourselves what to think…and condition ourselves to … And if we aren’t perfectly healthy or comfortable or satisfied, we let others know. As a new year dawns, consider that God’s word offers great treasures on a first reading, and many of its greatest ones as we reread year after year. Somehow, in that moment, I knew that he had a plan. Truly, God alone most certainly provides us with all we need in live perfectly blissful lives without any of those people and things we think we can’t live without. However, plenty of saints have written about this perfect peace God provides, and it is meant for us too. I was angry with God, wondering why I had even given my life to serve him. To learn more please read, “What is the Desire for Sin.”. What a cross! To desire God alone means weÂ want nothing but to love God and live His will. We can love our family, however we must desire to know, serve and love God in them. Oh, how damaging that is! I don’t know if God is your greatest desire. And you will find a place of incomparable beauty and peace. However, most of the time the devil has us saying with our words we love God above all but our actions prove we are deceiving ourselves as our hearts think about and desire to be with them…not united with God. Truly, underneath each and every sin we choose is our pride (self-love). We will know we are on the right path when our hearts can’t wait to die–to be with God. Some do pray and read religious books, but it isn’t our true love…it is a burden or done mostly to gain knowledge (to be smarter than others) not to truly know or love God, and sometimes it is out of commitment, not true love. He is worth fighting for in your life. I have never been the same. Truly, how can we welcome God’s love into our hearts, if we go to other things to fill us. Will Anointing of the Sick Forgive Mortal Sins? If we are setting our affections on an object or a person clearly outside of God’s will as revealed in the Bible, then we need to repent of the desire itself, even if we have not acted to obtain the object of our desire. They are so very blessed to have the support and discipline of its members to not only see to it, through obedience, that its members leave the world not only physically but that they also help move their hearts to remove all cravings for anything that isn’t to know, serve and love God, so a pure desire for God alone can one day flourish. It means we don't seek sin and only seek His will. The journey began with a moment of surrender, a moment when I told him that I didn’t want this journey but I would take it, a moment when I asked him to do an amazing work in me so he could do an amazing work through me. We find some other worldly pleasure instead. God knows the desires of our heart, He is always looking into your heart to see if you desire Him. For the most part, anointing of the sick doesn't directly forgive mortal sin. If we are reciprocated love in return–great, but alert that we don’t allow the devil, who is looking to sneak into our lives and kill us, to make us addicted to love. I began to run from God, convinced that I could live this life on my own terms. “But what is my [Jesusâ] will, except that you should want to love Me above all things and not desire anything but Meâ (Jesus to St. Bridget of Sweden). Without humility we can't gain self-knowledge or correct knowledge of the Way. We tragically have made them our gods. Her greatest desire is to be a channel of God’s comfort and encouragement. Take my yoke [commands] upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves. How Can I be Happy when Things go Greatly Wrong? Not that God doesn’t come to us through man to support us and show us compassion when we need it so we can one day obtain the faith we need to suffer like Christ; He does. I highly recommend this book to anyone who is struggling with God and joy. However, until we have the grace to desire God alone, we actually need the love and affection of others, and sadly we even need the pleasures of this world too, because without them, since we have made them the source of our happiness (and not God), we would live bored, depressed and quite lonely lives. Oh, all of the pleasures we seek and things we do to make us happy that aren’t God–or should I say that aren’t to know, serve or love God…the things we justify doing that are so far from what any saint or Jesus would spend their time doing….yes, those things….the hours we squander away with “fun”, we need to one by one, with the help of God’s grace, replace them all with things a saint would do (God’s will) so we can one dayÂ desire Him alone. Maybe it’s revenge, or sexual sin. This must end, if we seek to desire God alone. And how do we love God–by surrendering our will for His (not sinning). Truly, if someone were to pick us up and drop us off onto a deserted island, we just know we would go crazy without our gadgets and gizmos, without out our friends and family, without out our job and sports, what ever it is that we can’t live without, since we don’t yet have a true relationship with God and the perfect joy and sanctification God alone provides. If we are seeking/desiring anything other than God, that rejects God’s saving love for some worldly gratification and rejects Eternal Life. We die and reject God's mercy strictly from our pride. That is why it is very important to visit the lonely because they need the affection from us since they don’t know how to obtain it from God yet. We can easily see what we have made our life, by how we react when we they depart. We have become hooked on the “feel good” sensation attention delivers and we feel we deserve it. We need self-knowledge.Â. But wanting for nothing but God, means we want nothing for ourselves…our mind is focused on loving and serve God. Do we go to the TV, Work, Friends, Shopping, Sports, Dining Out, Beach, Internet, Books, etc. If we desire anything but God we die. I began to trust him to lead me into it. We have allowed sin to make sin to make us into needy, complaining people that don’t tolerate anything but perfect comfort. Yes, desiring anything that is self-serving or for self-gratification, that isn’t for the honor and glory of God isÂ desiring sin, which is in fact a deadly desire–since to be saved we can’t desire sin, but we must fully reject/hate it.Â, Desiring sin rejects God’s saving grace to love ourselves, making ourselves what we seek to love/please–idolize ourselves–and not God alone. 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