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false memory ocd feels so real

Most people with OCD know that what OCD is telling them is false, but the panic induced by the OCD thoughts is so strong that it's difficult for the rational part of the brain to be heard. Can I have underlying fears Cus I never consciously approached or thought of these fears before really, just one of those things that anyone are scared off. I can’t handle it. Okay thank you so much. This memory just feels so real so it will be hard to move on but I’ll try. Like really real? Real rapists don't ruminate about it, they don't regret it or feel remorse, and they try to pin the blame on the victim. It’s ruined me; demolished my self confidence and just me in general and it’s honestly horrible. It didn't actually happen. When most people think of the compulsions experienced by those with OCD, they think of the stereotypical hand washing or door checking seen in Hollywood films like The Aviator or As Good As It Gets. In a lot of cases the harm was minimal anyway. Hey all, I need help. Like I remember “praying” and my mind tells me I did after which doesn’t really make sense to me. I don’t remember any other feeling I can just see myself pulling away and my head tells me because I felt something. I can’t ever remember doubting it, I just believed it happened, but that’s because of the anxiety and OCD itself. I’ll try, I’ll just push it away. Yeah I did believe the false memory, I had no reason not too at the time. I just don’t understand my OCD. I think my problem is I don’t remember NOT doing it so in my head it must’ve happened, which is irrational. And then OCD makes it escalate until you actually believe it! I can’t stop ruminating now and I feel like it happened. The false memories created will be different for each individual and this depends on what troubles the individual most. It's a mistake for your GP to use the word, as it carries all sorts of baggage, and implies psychosis. Keep in mind I am not sure exactly what she said although I am leaning towards "is this what you want?" You’re right, the doubt is so strong and the what if is the hardest part of it all, it makes it so hard to move on. Thank you so much. But when it comes to remembering the important things, like a cherished childhood event, our memories are accurate and trustworthy, right? OCD guilt, false memories, etc. Is it really how I remember it?' Maybe I can help you. Each case of OCD is different, and you can have more than one of any type of OCD. A feature of people with OCD is that we are afraid of causing harm. Thoughts can, and do pop in to our mind seemingly out of "nowhere" all the time. Try to ignore it. Please help. It feels so real in parts, but I can’t even remember first remembering it, I just know it got bigger and powerful each time. Fear is a powerful emotion and can take over from rational thought. Hello all, I tend to have real event OCD situations due to being sexually abused by a cousin as a child. At the moment the fear mechanism in your brain is firing on all cylinders and reinforcing a false memory. One thing that’s lingering is I tried to reenact my memory stupidly and the anxiety kicked off and it made me feel like the memory is true. Do you feel this is your experience with false memory? It’s making good me constantly doubt OCD and False memories and keep ruminating which makes everything so much more vivid. Last year when I was 16, I was terrified I was a rapist. Distorted the memory? I know it's difficult, but when the temptation to ruminate comes on, try to allow the thoughts in, but don't grapple with them or anything. It's fear that makes this false memory stick in your mind and convinces it that it is real. When I’m using logic it’s easy but the doubts come back to me which is so hard to overcome. I knew of porn much younger at like 10. The false memory has hi-jacked the brain, it follows you day and night. Thank you for your constant kind words, it helps so much! Like little details are just added, what do I do? Okay, that makes me feel better. The rational parts of the brain can struggle when alarm bells are going off in the emotional parts of the brain. I’ve looked back over the stats for the year and still right out in front is the post I wrote on Pure O and False memory OCD. So after my mental health assessment, I was told to go to my GP to talk with them about medication, I was talking to a practice GP who had 6 weeks till he was a fully qualified. It might help to get professional help. I know that the average person wouldn't know what I was going through in mentally checking with myself, and therapists sometimes do not fully understand the extent to which this happens, so thats why I am here, wondering what people who suffer from OCD think. I don't recall that you are on medication of any sort, but it could be a start to get a prescription for antidepressants if you don't already have one. But that’s from me remembering it. I can think I am a multi billionaire if I want, but unfortunately that’s not true. I never felt scared or ocd of harming anyone, I just imagined sex 24/7. Just tell myself it isn’t real? Probably, very likely! Although OCD thrives on doubt, you can still learn to manage to deal with the doubt. It feels so real, even though I don't see why I would ever do that...so that's what leads me to suspect it is a false memory. I know they’re false, I’m getting so much better but everytime a new detail “resurfaces” I believe it straight away and I find it so difficult. That's one of the things OCD does, making false thoughts. What if another detail just randomly comes up? But often what we have come to call “False Memory OCD” is not so much about the presence of false memories but about the need to be certain about the truth or falseness of our thoughts. It's good that your GP is quite well informed about OCD, but that doesn't mean he is an expert. Yeah that makes sense. In my head, I feel as though all scenarios I re-enacted are false but the doubt is there, what’s your advice on that? and she lifted up her shirt and I saw the bottom of her breasts. But its my first... mind. I seem to recall her saying something along the lines of "is this what you want?" A subreddit dedicated to discussion, articles, and images regarding OCD. It’s always hard in the morning. It constantly changes and this to me is a sign it’s not reliable. If the OCD and false memory returns, try dealing with it the way you have done so successfully. I really know how you feel. The best thing to do, if you can, is to just let them alone. transcranial direct current stimulation (tDCS) or cranial el... Will only 'thinking positively' help with my anxiety and OCD? Believe me, there are real rapists, who really do rape people, but it is clear you are not one of them. So if you’re at work and you’re struggling with a task because it causes you anxiety, or you’re late for work because you had to go back home and do some OCD rituals, and you tell your employer about your challenges, don’t be surprised if they say something like: “Yeah, I struggled with compulsions and all sorts of anger and relationship issues for years. Are the thoughts true? It doesn’t make sense to me. None of these things are you. or "is this what you want to see?" It may feel real, but that's the anxiety making it into something it isn't. Thank you so much, also I try to see in on a logical stand point, there was never evidence of rape and she would have definitely woke up. I’m just gonna take a leap and say it’s false, I’m trying so hard but my ocd just focuses on the same two details constantly shifting one after another after I’ve “solved” one and my brain instantly labels it as “solid proof” this has terrorised my life for 2 years, how do I possibly come back and train my brain? Yeah I get that, I’m definitely the exact opposite of wanting to hurt someone, let alone rape someone. It's still OCD, however it manifests itself. Remember how real dreams can feel. The images and feelings in your mind could be memories of things you may have watched on a film for example, which your imagination has taken on and then assumed it happened to you. It doesn't. I … False memory, if you believe it, is a delusion, although it's a strong word to use. Part of my OCD is wondering if I should stop talking to people because of things such as this. I knew of porn much younger at like 10. And I want to know how can it be so vivid and real feeling but not be true? I can’t actively remember how it unfolded but I’m guessing that’s where it’s all come from and why I can’t remember what happened “after” or before. Having OCD can be like having a faulty car alarm or house alarm. Like what are the difference? But my mind says “what if you tried” or something and changed your mind. Is that possible? He was actually well informed about OCD, he wanted to give me medication to monitor whether it helps or not but the other GP said I needed a letter from the crisis center telling them what medication they want me to have. It can make you make connect things that are apparently unconnected. Just let them be. Sometimes it makes sense it didn’t happen, but then I think “why would I think she’s pregnant if it didn’t happen?” I remember memories of me worrying and searching pregnancy symptoms, but it’s like an ocd memory I instantly believed. He said he didn’t mean too but I can’t help but think now. Is that how false memories work? The sort of people who ruminate about doing harm are the least likely to actually harm anyone. I have cheating OCD with false memory - it's like hell. I feel like if I don't tell him exactly what was said some how I cheated on him which I know makes no sense but the feels are so real. I asked her that even if she did, it wouldn't be something that was done for sexual gratification and she said of course not. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. CBT is about learning to think about mental health issues in a different way, and do things differently. Content on HealthUnlocked does not replace the relationship between you and doctors or other healthcare professionals nor the advice you receive from them. I’ve had a friend go to a crisis center and it was the best thing for them. While we might liken our memories to a camera, preserving every moment in perfect detail exactly as it happened, the sad fact is that our memories are more like a collage, pieced together sometimes crudely with the occasional embellishment or even outright fabrication. It's just a false 'memory' and without the OCD, you'd realize that there is nothing to remember. Fear can make the mind do things that are not rational, such as imagining that you've raped someone or got them pregnant when you haven't actually had sex with them. It’s been 2 years of constant rumination for me, but I have doubted this memory before, but that’s when I first found out about OCD. It's pretty clear that you didn't rape anyone. As I said, it carries with it an assumption of psychosis, although OCD isn't a form of psychosis. Make the most of your therapy, as it really can work. Perhaps not a complete cure, but enough to let you get on with living. Also porn stars often have bodies that don't represent what most people are like. Is it possible for false memories to feel real? A memory can be of a real event, and most memories are just this. Memory and imagination can be very powerful, and because OCD makes you doubt things while demanding certainty, it can make you have trouble in working out what is real and what is imaginary. Im very concerned I may have done something totally against my true character. How fast can they form? I’m just so confused, scared and back at square one. It can relieve the worst of the OCD and make it easier to do CBT. Kept thinking I had done something awful and felt tsk terribly but I hadn’t and I felt plagued by the fear I had! Also, I read about “real event OCD” and now I feel like my memory is a Real Event. I am in therapy, on meds, etc, but it is not always 100% effective. I feel this confirms my worst fears and confirms all the memories are true because I should know if it was or not. 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